I am who I am
Not who I was
Loved by many
Cared for by few
I lost so much love
so I say this to you
I was three days old
With a brain damaged so bad
I was incubator bound
No mom and no dad
I grew up very quiet
Afraid to speak up
I didn’t agree
No, so I just shut up
I was touched as a baby
So sick, now they say
back then, though
The culture
Turned and looked away
At 5 I was molested
Every day of the week
Someone else came at 7
Took virginity from me
I ran to the streets
When I was 13
Had gotten expelled
For being honest about me
I’m gay, I admitted
I told the truth
so because I was honest
I was kicked out of school
Found my way to a girl
Who took me in
For the first time was loved
But was having a kid
over 7 months later
I was about to pop
But my baby daddy was a rapist
And mom said NO — STOP
Gave me a pill
That stole my sons life
The day he was killed
It cut me like knives
Bravery Airik-Marii would have
Been 15 this next year
Instead I’m in prison
And he ain’t been here
I killed my mother
I admit it was not fair
I really did love her
I grew up in juvie
Was beat in youth authority
Went to mental health systems
Grew up after this story
Now I am working
Every day as I go
To be the best I can
But don’t do it for show
I don’t talk about
What I do
I just go day to day
Be good to me and to you
To be the role model
I needed back then
Pray for my mom
and my birth mom, both of them
I pray for my friends
Who died in a broken system
Suicide and pain
Was so hard brought wisdom
I learned from their losses
To just be myself
And now I’m an author
With degrees on my shelf
I want me a future
One of calm truth
To be happy and healthy
No longer abused
No longer feared
To be kind and find love
I sing this, I cheer
So pray for me up above!
You are my reader
My friend and confidante
So go be a leader
And learn from this song!