This prison I describe myself as being in prior to actually entering one was years in the making. The most regarded and celebrated members of my community were the most divisive and destructive. As a child of that community, hearing, learning and observing, I aspired to be like them. Images in popular culture affirmed their way of life, movies translated the stories witnessed, music popularized the traditions I was accustomed to, and fashion made the identities of people in my community trendy. Naturally I wanted to become the same.