Money, drugs, and power made me show restraint.
It blinded me and kept me from taking that leap of faith.
For years I felt my heart was in the wrong place,
Like I built a new identity
And the old one was erased.
Years of suppressing who I truly was
Kept me from happiness and appreciating who I truly love.
When I was imprisoned
I took it as a sign from above,
The Holy One’s guidance truly went from push to shove.
A clouded mind only shows rain and gloom.
When people asked me when I would change
I told them — soon.
Really, I meant never,
I was so lost I couldn’t choose.
I was so confused, even lies became the truth.
I was troubled, but does anyone pay attention to the youth?
They pass the blame to society,
But I refuse to accept their excuse.
I tell them it’s the same old story.
Why don’t you come up with something new?