Sometimes
I have lovely dreams
When there are women involved
These lovely dreams are so real
Plain, dry
But they make me so happy
I wish they could last forever
Just hanging out with a female
Talking
Eating together
Walking to places hand-in-hand will do
I didn’t want to wake up ever again
I’d love to be trapped
In one of these lovely dreams
For eternity
Rather than
Wake up to a prison cell
Sometimes
I have ugly nightmares
When my father is in them
These nightmares happened in real life
And existed in my frightening dreams
They reminded me of my childhood
Sometimes I saw my father holding a knife
Looking for me
Constantly stalking me
Chasing me everywhere
I ran and ran
No place to hide
It reminds me of a movie
The Shining
My heart beating very fast
I was covered in sweat
I woke up in fear and panic
But I rather be in a prison cell

