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I started my law enforcement career as a security officer at ABC Security. It was a brief stint; I quit due to heavy cocaine use. I was living a low life and needed some structure, a change. I decided to join the US Army after hearing the famous slogans, “Be All That You Can Be,” and “ARMY Strong.” 

To be a defender of the United States was a challenge. Since I was trying to quit the drug habit, I made “I strive for excellence” my mantra and motto. When I received an honorable discharge for medical reasons after a year, my accelerated learning and training with honor were noted. 

After I returned to life as a civilian citizen, I received a lead for a job through word of mouth. My new goal was to get this position as a correctional officer for Pierce County Jail. I took the physical test and was asked several times to do the required 90 sit ups. I became frustrated and walked out. I was also asked to take a different test to be a deputy for the county. This didn’t work out either. I left and went home to my production employment job cooking candy.

I had also hoped to join the police force. After gaining some experience as a police officer, I wanted to join SWAT. Finally, I hoped to retire and, through my grandfather’s contacts at city hall and his work as a councilman, have my own seat on the city council. 

All my plans had soured, but now, I hold new plans and when I successfully accomplish them I can smile, walking to retirement. To stand on your own two feet, to hold your pants up, should be the norm for all.

 
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Monte A. Crawford

Monte A. Crawford is a writer incarcerated in Ione, Calif. He is currently living at Mule Creek State Prison.